This post was the text from a talk given to a teen Bible study group at my parish, Our Lady of Angels, Allen, TX on October 4, 2017.
In the past, there were fleeting times and moments where I contemplated if there was a God. Was there really this Jesus Man-God that walked the earth some 2000 years ago. I was always able, though, to see those moments of uncertainty as just a passing thought and again concluded that God and Jesus were in fact real. Sometimes it took hard lessons learned to regain my Faith in Jesus. For example, in the winter of my sophomore year at college, I stopped going to church. It was scary. Those three months turned out to be the worst, most lonely, and darkest time in my life as God was displaced by the world. It was not until the gift of the Mass and Eucharist was rediscovered that spring that the joy again replaced the darkness. But, it took a life changing event 20 years ago; however, to truly cement my belief in Jesus as my God and Savior, from a point of general Faith into a point of absolute Fact.
It is true, God has a purpose and a reason for everyone. I didn’t know what that purpose was or even that God had a purpose in mind for me until the year of 1996, I was 40 years old then. 1996 is a year that I will never forget, because it was the year that God visited me personally and I was never the same afterwards.
In the 50’s and 60’s Archbishop Fulton Sheen had an Emmy award winning TV show where he preached or Evangelized to America to share Jesus’ good news. In one show, He talked about the Magi’s visit to the Holy Family that first Christmas. He commented about the part in the story where the Magi went home by another route. He said, “Of course the Magi took another route home. When one encounters Jesus, one can never go back the same way one came.”
In 1996 I was involved with the Christ Renews His Parish program at my parish in Indianapolis, like the program we have here at Our Lady of Angels. I was in my formation period, after my first retreat, and working with my fellow CRHP brothers preparing to put on the next retreat. We had homework to study between each weekly meeting. One evening, while engrossed in my studies, I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit, meaning I suddenly had to stop what I was doing to address this feeling that I had just encountered.
The call was similar to God’s calling of the Old Testament Prophet Samuel from his deep sleep, and I said, “Yes Lord I am listening.” In this first encounter, I received one sole message. He loved me. In weeks to follow, the same phenomenon happened. I would feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. I would stop what I was studying and listen. These next four weeks, though, I received a very different message. This message stated, “Something very bad will happen to you and your family.” The ending, though, to each message, always contained a flowing, total peace that I seemed to just inhale. A peace that I had never received or felt before.
In later visitation sessions, I began to ask back “what would this bad thing be?” Would someone from my family be hurt or lost? Jesus answered this question with, “No all will be safe and unhurt.”
Now, how great is that to not only hear God speaking to me, but actually hold a conversation with God! Thoughts of authenticity raged through my mind. Was this real? Was I just making this up? Was this really coming from God and not from some other spirit trying to do harm to me? Well, the key evidence this was coming from God was that total feeling of peace. I knew I could not make something like that up. I knew that the Devil could not produce peace, only anger and confusion. Secondly, I probably received at least 10 different visitations, so this was more than just a passing thought or day dream. Unbeknownst to me, I was being sent, or dragged into Jesus’ vineyard.
About four months after these visitations finally ended, and just as it was laid out by God, the bad thing happened. Early in the morning of July 5th, 1996, our home caught fire and burned down.
First, the miracle: As said earlier, God promised that we would all make it out safely. All the elaborate pieces God put together, the sequence of events, to make this all happen were amazing. First the family went out for a cookout the day before, on the 4th of July. The barbecued food gave my wife heartburn and she was sleeping restlessly that night. Next about 2:00am, my oldest son, then 9yrs old, woke up to use the bathroom. Something that he had never done before. His clattering around in the bathroom woke up my wife. She then smelled a faint burning odor and woke me up. I then walked the house hoping to confirm all was ok so could then go back to bed. Well, when I checked the garage, the ceiling was bright orange, on fire. I then ran upstairs, woke up my wife and 3 kids. We all exited the house, completely unhurt and no one saw even a single flame on the way out, completing the first part of God’s promise to me, all were OK.
After the firemen came, and I was with them watching the fire fight, it finally hit me like a 2×4 to the back of the head: This Was It! This was the bad thing foretold! First, I realized that the fire was the final piece to prove those visits earlier in the year were in fact from God. The thing foretold really happened, and just as predicted in those visitation sessions.
After that, my knees became weak. I felt like Moses and the burning bush, except my house was definitely being consumed. I felt as if I were standing on holy ground, on a holy quest. I knew, then, that losing all my possessions in this fire was one part of God’s plan. He had done so much to prepare me for this. I knew that there had to be more.
That something more began to happen the next morning. People started coming out of the woodwork to donate things to my family that we lost and needed, like clothes, shoes, toys for the kids, sheets, towels. Our neighbors took us in and housed and fed us. Our parish took up a second collection for us at the weekend Masses the week after.
God’s plan? Through my family and me, through our house fire, the Holy Spirit was sent to energize the love and charity of our communities surrounding my family.
The most awesome gift I received was seeing Jesus in each person that came to give their charity. I saw their eyes light up. Their faces seemed to get brighter with each step taken from their car to the house where we stayed. We always heard in our religious ed classes that Jesus resides in each of us. Well, I am standing here telling you it is true. I saw it!
I tell you. God is real! Jesus is real! I do not have to expound some grand quest of science to prove that God is real. He is real. I interacted with Him. He loves me. He told me that. The bad thing he predicted really happened. My family was completely unhurt just as He promised. I saw Jesus in each person that visited us over that year to give their charity; to watch Jesus explode out from their eyes. They looked like angels. I have never questioned the reality of God again. How could I?
The best thing is that of the billions of people on this earth, He knew me. He knew all about me. He knew how weak I was and that I would need to be strengthened to bear His cross to energize my community. The even better thing, Jesus knows each one of you. He loves each one of you infinitely. He wants all of us to be with Him for all eternity. All we need to do is say, “Yes”. It doesn’t get any better than that! Amen!
 1 Samuel chapter 3, Revelation to Samuel